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I've been wondering over the last few weeks whether to stop blogging. Or at least pause on it for a while. Since becoming pregnant, I've become obsessed with spending as much time with the boys as possible. They're growing at an alarming rate and I worry about missing something. Not fully soaking up and enjoying who they are and who they're becoming. Days and weeks are over in a blink of an eye and somehow I'm actually 23 weeks pregnant; I'm having to genuinely stop and think 'HOW?!'. I hit the third trimester in a mere few weeks! I know it's because the boys are keeping me busy, so there's less time to dwell on all the tiny things. There's so much for us to learn and take in, chores and day trips to fit in.
This summer was amazing and I wish I had sat and wrote about it a little more. It just zoomed by, but held so many precious memories of a family of 4 - like the little walks we went on and the fab trip to the zoo. I also hoped to write a little on the days I felt damn good about being a parent - that time I took both boys to do the BIG food shop on my lonesome and they were so well behaved and felt that MAYBE having 3 will be okay! Or about the fact my little guys have formed a really gorgeous bond this summer and have been breaking my heart. I also wanted to share my worries about how I'm giving birth near Christmas and how in January I always suffer with SAD, what will that mean for me and my family post-birth?



Evenings was always my time to sit down and write, catch up on those pictures and write down our memories. But, I've become to neglect it and use my Instagram as the platform of our little storytelling. Uploading a picture a day (or two days) sharing what we've been doing and our plans.. things that seem so incredibly ordinary but yet makes up our family life. I'm so glad I have been doing that as I find myself scrolling through my own timeline, looking at all the picture I took and reading up on our days. Taking photo's of the boys have always been something I've loved, a moment snapped and captured forever.

The boys have settled into a new routine of school and nursery. I'm settling into the routine of realising that I have two boys in that position. (seriously, again with the HOW?) This week has flown by, yet we've all adjusted perfectly well. We had a lovely 6 weeks together, but it was lovely to see them take on different yet similar adventures of their own. It also means I can have a morning a week to myself and also another morning with just Chris and I (days Noah is in nursery) - they go incredibly quick but it's time for me to soak up some silence and to also grab Chris's help with the chores. Nesting has yet to really begun but I've been getting so I have a few ideas that are leading to plans in the works over the last few weeks before baby boy arrives. It's really strange trying to explain to people how scary it is, to feel like you're constantly running to keep up with time. I can never say it enough, but I wish it'd all slow down a little so I can revel in the minute things happen.

So, yeah, I'm not sure where I stand on my decision for the moment - it's very mixed in my head. My life consists of so much housework, school runs and cuddles, that by the time evening comes around I just want to pop my feet up and soak up the little kicks from my littlest guy. As time has flown I haven't had a chance to catch up with the things I want, like my book (began reading a chapter a night to little guy a couple of days ago) and the few posts I wanted to write as I said earlier. This currently feels like another thing I need to do and I want to do it, it's just finding the energy at the end of it all to physically type it up. Maybe, I just need to write snappier posts like I do on Instagram?


The Reading Residence

6 comments:

  1. The time does fly be, doesn't it? Sounds like you had a great summer and the new changes are working well for you all. I like to use IG to capture moments like that, too, it's perfect for it. I think blog when you feel like it, and try not to feel the pressure to do so. When baby arrives you may feel it'll cement your decision one way or another x Thanks for sharing with #WotW

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    1. It really does and it scares me how quick! Thank you for your advice, that's where I'm sitting with it as I don't really want to close something I really love, yet I feel bad for not updating more often! But we shall see how we go as there's so much I want to write, it's just finding the time and energy.. x

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  2. I think for the very reason that the time does fly is the very reason that you share things, because they grow and change all to quick. Love the opportunities that camera phones and digital cameras have opened up to the world and that it is nice to click click click away 20, 30, 40 pictures to keep 1 or 2. I have so few pictures of my own children in comparison with many badly taken and some missed opportunities because film was too expensive to just keep shooting. #wordoftheweek

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    1. Yes, this is exactly what makes me not want to close it because it's so precious to look back on our trips etc. I definitely appreciate that I can record these special moments :) xx

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  3. Time certainly does fly by, and you are lucky to be capturing it, at least on INstagram if not having time to blog about it all. I completely understnd. I've been meaning to make photo books for what feels like forever! I don't know how the children get so big, but time just keeps marching on doesn't it? How exciting that you have another little one to look forward to. #WotW

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    1. It's really tough fitting it all in isn't it? But I'm so grateful I'm able to snap the pictures, I'm hoping to be able to share more but fear with no.3 coming it'll take up so much time! Thank you :) xx

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