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I have to admit, I've really missed blogging. I miss just writing about my everyday and those little things that matter. December flew by and before I knew it, it was Christmas and New Year! I'm a little grateful that life has slowed a little again what with getting back into routine of school runs and housework.

It's been a little of a strange week for me as on the one hand I feel utterly calm and content. I've worked out the things I want to focus on a bit more being reading, eating a bit healthier and this blog, but also saving some money and living in the everyday. However on the other hand I feel all in a fluster under homework, school letters and announcements, birthday parties and a mountain of Open Uni work. I'm feeling very dishearten about my course at the moment, I don't have a whole lot of motivation for it and I'm struggling to put the work in when there's so much to do in the home. I'm not really enjoying the topic either and I have this feeling of wanting to hibernate.


It worries me my SAD may be starting to rise like it does this time of year and whilst so far I've been feeling pretty well, evenings seem to be my worst time. I just want to crawl into bed once the boys go and read until I fall asleep. I'm enjoying the escapism of reading at the moment and it really makes me feel totally calm. So when it comes to that "I really must be doing.." my mind does the whole clam up, irritable thing, but I've recognised it's a pattern of evenings so I'm becoming more aware to make sure I do things in the day so I can have that evening space. It really does make me realise I sound like a petulant child when I read that back, but you've just got to work through these things the best way you can right?

So this week has been a mixture of feelings, but I'm pleased to get back to a little normality after the exciting festive period. We had a really lovely Christmas and a quiet New Year, but it's lovely to see Freddie get back into the swing of little school tales and having that one on one time with Noah. I realised the other day that he'll be starting Nursery this September and it's going to be so odd thinking of him being old enough to attend. He's going to love it though as he loves bouncing out the door taking Freddie to school so I think'll be exciting for him. However I'm going to make the most of him being my little follower at home for the time being!

The Reading Residence

8 comments:

  1. I don't think it makes you sound petulant at all, the fact that you are able to recognise the symptoms is great as you are able to deal and manipulate the situation, surely thats better for you all your family. Reading relaxes and calms me down too, in fact I cant go to sleep without reading, I hope you are feeling on top of it next week x

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    1. I think it's a feeling of things could be worse that made it seem a petulant thing but it does make me happy that I'm recognising the symptoms before they're becoming an issue! :)
      Yes reading does make a massive change doesn't it? That short while of escapism makes the biggest difference when you're not your best xx

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  2. It is hard to get uni motivated at the moment, I agree. I have an assignment that I need to write, but I keep putting it off! It's good that you're spotting when you work at your best and when you just need to relax. I'm definitely better in the mornings, I know that. I long for the spring now, as I do not like January at all. Ah well, it'll soon fly by! Thanks for sharing with #WotW x

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    1. It really is. I keep having to have a word with myself to keep on track - it's really not good when you feel that way. I think spotting my best times and planning ahead really helps me keep focus, after all it is only until May then we can enjoy the Summer :)
      Oh me too, the sun is shining today and my insides are so happy, I'm definitely a spring person what with my birthday in April! Xx

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  3. I can totally identify when the weather is so dull you want to hibernate and nothing beata reading to escape. X #wotw

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    1. Really puts you down doesn't it? It definitely helps when you're in the mood x

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  4. I have to read myself to sleep. I've been doing it since I was about 10! I love being able to escape into a book.

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    1. That's awesome. I used to read a lot of the time before I fell asleep but I lost it a bit once the boys began growing. Glad I got it back again! X

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