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Baby Number 3?


We've reached that stage in our little unit where our thoughts have started to wander to the future.

Freddie is 4, soon to be 5 in March and he's growing up so fast - I find it hard to come to terms with how independent and grown he seems these days. Only the other night did he get up in the evening and took his sleepy self to the toilet and climbed back in bed after a brief nod to "Are you alright bub?". I couldn't help in equal measure feel shock as I did a whoop! It's safe to say our biggest boy is completely "toilet trained" (Is there another term, 'cos it really makes him sound like a puppy!). He's very often making me burst with pride at the moment as he's quite the sweet lad; his school work is amazing and he's developing more than I thought would be possible in such a short time.

Noah is 19 months and shall be 2 in April, which seem crazy because I'm sure I was pregnant with him only a few weeks ago? But here we are and he's walking, started talking and is growing what seems cm's everyday. He's catching up with his big brother and trying to follow in his footsteps, this makes me happy because his brother is one to follow, but it does make me realise how he really isn't a baby anymore. He doesn't want them long snuggles at the moment as he's too busy to learn and play. He's at the stage where he's pretty much feeding himself once we cut up his food. He's attempting to start going to the toilet (really is the cutest thing) and he's really turned into a little boy.



I think your second really makes you realise how fast life goes, I never really thought or considered it until I fell pregnant with Noah but these last couple of years have whizzed by; a common saying amongst all parents is how much we wish time would slow down so that we can be in the moment a little more and a damn slight longer. It's inevitable that life happens but, the days seem to go by in a minute and the months in a week - I swear this is the reason why we struggle to get into the mood for the season as we're still back in 2013. I find it funny how when I was younger it seemed like the years went on forever and now when I'm in the mix of my best years, they're passing by.

I honestly mean it when I say since meeting Chris, my life has become a little more special. I've enjoyed our relationship, I do immensely, I enjoy our sons and our family time. There's nothing that comes remotely close to how I feel when the boys are playing together happily and Chris is joining in, I may be joining in too or I might be watching from the side lines and my tears well up at the beauty of my little family. Listening to the squeals and the giggles. I'm incredibly lucky for all that I have and I do my utmost to never take any of that for granted.
I watch and I feel so happy with what we've created and then I often have a little think and wonder if we'd ever have another baby. How would another little brother or a sister, another son or a daughter change our dynamics? And I often think, they'd be a complete blessing and be consumed by love from their older brothers. I think that Chris would adore another little one jumping around and hugging him as he comes home from work and I think they'd fit in with no problems; it'd be another baby I could share my soul with and teach.
It'd be a baby we could all help look after and love, it'd be another friend to us all. I think one more would fit in beautifully and finish our family off perfectly, but..

That's the daydream of it all. It would be absolutely perfect, because we would give it our love and attention. I'd love to experience pregnancy all over again, all the rolls and kicks, finding out the sex and searching for a name, that fresh newborn smell and covering them in kisses. I'm not particularly a cat person, or a dog person really, but I'm a baby person. I'm that friend who can't control themselves when they catch a glance of a newborn from the other side of the room, that one who goes 'aww' and the people with me are like 'what?' 'a tiny little baby' I exclaim whilst they roll their eyes; I can't help it, my ovaries scream and I just adore them. I often have a little moan about the hard days on here or to my friends, but I wouldn't be anywhere than with my little people.


I've always envisioned three children when I was young. Two girls and a little boy I dreamt up when I was around 15 and it made me smile, even back then that idea gave me a warm feeling but somehow I never expected children to become a reality in any way - I expected it to stay a romantic notion in a bubble inside my head.
Having Freddie fitted quite nicely in my mind, despite only having been 19 I loved him and he was a dream. We decided when he was a year old we'd like to try for another as I ideally wanted two fairly close together but it took us 16 months to conceive Noah which was a lot longer than I thought.
I didn't start this blog until I was in the 3rd Trimester with Noah so I never spoke of our struggle to conceive him, although I'm not sure how it could've made a difference but it took up a large chunk of our life. He was our 2nd little dream come along and it's been tough, tiring but so lovely in many ways - they were both so wanted and are so loved. So would 3 be any different to 2?

But like every decision, you have to way up the surroundings - we don't drive which is an issue for us at the moment, we can't really afford to and saving is a struggle for any family but we've begun, so that's a start. We also live in a 2 bedroom house which is pretty cosy for the 4 of us but we manage just fine at the moment but if there was a 3rd it could become an issue for space (not so much in the earlier days as it would be months on), but then we'd have to move which we're not in a position to be able to currently.
In the grand scheme of things it probably doesn't seem a massive deal but I know they will be a part of my life and will impact us in the future. I'm one to worry on a practical level and Chris is moreso and money is the practicality of it all and whilst children don't 'need' it, it's needed to provide them a home. I wouldn't change anything we've done for the world because it's made us the unit we are today and every family have their own little story and I'm proud of mine.

There's currently a baby boom in the blogging world (and a few outside) and I think that adds to my broodiness, I'm loving following people's journeys and I'm one to get very excited alongside them. Pregnancy is an incredible thing and babies are just so precious.
We've discussed the idea of number 3 and there's many things to discuss from financial to even conceiving, but we have agreed that Number 3 would be our last as we'd feel it'd be the perfect number for us and plus if it was a boy then I'm overly outnumbered in our household, but if it was a girl then I think it'd make it perfect round figure. I would love a girl, because I love the idea of having a daughter and all that would bring to our home, but another son would bring another playmate for the boys and another one to my brood - I don't think I've done too bad bringing up two little lads so a third would be no different. I often think 'well, I am only 24, I've got a few years yet' but then I wonder if I would want too much of a big gap between the boys as they're 3 years apart, but then not to conceive straight away would leave a bigger gap between Noah and #3.
I would also love to go for a 4D scan if I ever got the chance to experience it all again because it's something I wanted with the boys but never really could spare the expense but as a last pregnancy, I'd want to give it a go.

There's so much to consider, but we've agreed to discuss it again next year.

How do you figure it out? Do you have experience of 2 to 3? I'd love to know!

4 comments:

  1. Obviously I'm only just having my 2nd, but I can still relate to what you're saying. I'd love to have a big family but it's mainly the money and lack of space issues that are holding me back (and that I don't cope with pregnancy well!). You're still so young though, you have plenty of time...then again I know what you mean about the age gap thing. Aaargh, it's so difficult isn't it!? x

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    1. It's really difficult to figure it out really 'cos on one hand it'd be so right for us as the boys are getting more independent and are right little boys, but then I wonder financially if we'd be able do it, plus there's the consideration to conceiving - I think giving it some time to think about will help us :) thank you kay xxxx

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  2. I have a huge age gap ( I was told after having my first I could not have any more children) So I now have an 18 yr old, a nearly 4 yr old a not far off 3 yr old and a 14 mth old and expecting another in March 2016 (she was not planned, or indeed meant to be possible!). There are days when I think people maybe right and maybe we are mad and their are other days when it is just amazing.

    I'm not sure there is ever a right or wrong, or even a right time there is just what there is and you do cope and you do enjoy it anyway... years ago I would never have even entertained the thought of me having more children let alone what will be 4 - four and under :-0 but now I would not change it for anything xxxx

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  3. I have a huge age gap ( I was told after having my first I could not have any more children) So I now have an 18 yr old, a nearly 4 yr old a not far off 3 yr old and a 14 mth old and expecting another in March 2016 (she was not planned, or indeed meant to be possible!). There are days when I think people maybe right and maybe we are mad and their are other days when it is just amazing.

    I'm not sure there is ever a right or wrong, or even a right time there is just what there is and you do cope and you do enjoy it anyway... years ago I would never have even entertained the thought of me having more children let alone what will be 4 - four and under :-0 but now I would not change it for anything xxxx

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