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This week has been very emotional in this house.
Whether it be Noah learning how to kick off an almighty tantrum (back arch, screaming and buckling his legs underneath him being a part of it!) or Freddie getting emotional when he's overtired.

It's been an especially emotional week for me as I feel so scared at how quick time is flying by and I know I'm constantly repeating it but I can't seem to have any control over my emotions. But, I do have control (somewhat) over what we can achieve in that time, if it wasn't a problem financially we'd be doing everything, going everywhere and just living like it's our last summer.
But we can't, and that's okay. As long as I'm with my boys I'm okay - I feel so grateful to be able to watch and grow with these little humans, whether it's a tantrum or crying over the fact I got the bowl out the cupboard first. It's a learning curve, I only get to learn to be mum as I go with them..

Last week I decided that I was going to keep Freddie off one day a week. One day when Chris is off to have a family day; whether it's to the park, a trip to the beach, a soft play centre or baking cakes at home - I want to spend time with them all, make videos and genuinely relish this time together. I want to soak up every smile and laugh to every joke. Before I know it he's going to be at school full time and it'll feel we barely see him anymore, because at the moment he only goes 9-12 and we get afternoons as well as the weekends. Our life shall feel very different.

I went to a parents meeting at Freddie's school (my thoughts are coming to a Vlog near you ;) keep an eye on my channel if you're interested!) and I felt hugely emotional as I walked around the school, although it wasn't my primary school it just felt a familiar place. The little chairs and tables, draws filled with pencils and other arty materials, a whiteboard and masses of displays with adorable images. I loved school (until I went to high school).
I can see why Freddie is so excited. I looked through workbooks and felt such emotions.. I'm now on the other side of the fence. I'm going to be looking in Freddie's come the end of the year. I'm a mum, to a little boy who is nearly old enough to go school. I'm a mum who's going to have to complain if I don't feel things are up to scratch. I'm a mum who's going to have to keep on top of his homework, a mum who's going to be in awe of him learning so many academic things and a mum who's going to be a complete mess on the 3rd of September. I am, I already get tears welling when I begin to think on it too long.
I'm a proud mum, but extremely emotional one.

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7 comments:

  1. Very emotional times. They do grow up so quickly, and I felt just as you do now this time last year, in fact look out for a blog post all about it next week! Enjoy the summer, but please be reassured that you will still have time with Freddie and the new chapter is a fun one x Thanks for sharing with #WotW

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    1. They do, it's so odd isn't it? Ooh shall definitely look out for that post :) yeah I'm looking forward to it as much as I'm sad about it haha - very mixed! X

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  2. You'll be amazed at how short the school day feels. You'll cram as much into it, so you can spend quality time with them after school. And the best part is listening to them tell you about their day and the amazing things they have learnt. See them grow. #WotW

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    1. I'm sure! At the moment it does feel I'm barely home before collecting him from nursery so I'm kinda looking forward to a year of pure school trips! Yeah I am really looking forward to hearing about everything.. he's going to love it! X

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  3. Aww I remember how it is with my son too. School is such an amazing & new experience both for me and my son. I am a foreigner here and I dont know how things work and I am learning by the day. But the days are short and time flies fast. Now I am getting wee bit better at being a mother of a schooler and next year my son will be in Yr 1! #wotw

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    1. Aww! I feel a little the same. He loves it so much already and it's fab to see so much enthusiasm from him.. looking forward to seeing how long it happens for! Yeah I think we'll be living for the weekends and half terms etc! Good luck to your son x

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    2. Aww! I feel a little the same. He loves it so much already and it's fab to see so much enthusiasm from him.. looking forward to seeing how long it happens for! Yeah I think we'll be living for the weekends and half terms etc! Good luck to your son x

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