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Dear Freds


I knew as soon as I snapped this photo, it'd be the one for this post. It's the cheeky smile and confident air that you stand.
I'm always calling you my big baby, but sometimes you grumble and say "I'm not a baby, I'm a big boy!" other times you love it and come settle down into a snuggle. Over the last few weeks I've noticed that you're at a crossroad.


You still want to be a baby, yet you're making strides into being a big boy and you can't really decide where you want to be. And, that's okay.. we know you're getting bigger, louder and gaining all types of knowledge. One day you'll be confident enough to step forward and you'll bloom. That smile will no doubt get cheekier and so will your personality but I love you beyond words. So go bloom :)

I love that you express yourself, especially with your sometimes funny jokes. Everything about you is so inspiring, you bring so much happiness wherever you go as you laugh and smile so much, you're so radiant. I love how comfortable life is with you, we're at that stage where we talk about everything and we don't hold back. I want you to feel you can talk to me about everything and know that I'll always listen and be there for you; whatever it may be.
Of course we have our clashes, but it's because you're learning and sometimes you just find it hard to express your frustration. You know the rules and very often try and find a loophole; you're that cheeky! You have your moments but you're over them before they've started.

I still find myself wondering how 4 years have gone by. How I've witnessed 4 years, of you, go by in a blink. I always feel a need to wrap you up and keep you small; it's not going to happen because you need and want to grow and secretly, I'm happy to have a little mate by my side. I'm lucky to have you be as lovely as you are. I love that you want my things and say "Look, I'm Mummy!"
I spoke to your Daddy before leaving you last weekend. I was weirdly fretful to leave you for the night. I told him not to be hard on you because you're actually fairly fragile. You're growing and I wanted him to protect you like I have. Being at that crossroad, you could either become the best or worst version of yourself. I told him that you're such a beautiful soul and you just need to be listened to. You live for the little moments like me. You're excited by the little things and you always bring out the best in me. I have so much to be grateful for and you're by far my biggest reminder.
I'm lucky you're so level headed and understanding. I'm far from perfect and you forgive me for my little slip ups and very often give me one of your prep talks - chuck my little sayings back at me.
You're perfect. You don't even know what you do to me and I don't expect you to ever truly understand it. But I love just watching you, whether that be playing or dancing around. I love them slightly plump cheeks and the way you go cross eyed when you smile; I just find myself wanting to stop time so the snuggles last a little longer and the conversation lingers for a while.
I've decided that one day in the week we're going to take you out of Nursery. I want to enjoy you a little longer and I feel so emotional that it's your last term at Nursery - I can't actually believe we're nearly here. We're going to have the best Summer ever. I just hope it never ends.

I love you lots and lots like Jelly Tots (you don't know how much this makes me smile when you say it - copy cat!) X

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9 comments:

  1. Beautiful!
    They grow up too quick :-(
    Thanks for sharing at #binkylinky

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    1. Thank you. They do really grow far too quick - honestly don't know where it's gone! X

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  2. Beautiful!
    They grow up too quick :-(
    Thanks for sharing at #binkylinky

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  3. Aww, this is lovely and that picture is perfect! I'm terrified of little A turning into big A, 17 months has already flown by and I can't believe I'm not still nursing a newborn. Ah! #binkylinky

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    1. Aw thank you :) Oh I'm the same with Noah, I just wish it'd all slow down! X

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  4. What a lovely post it's frightening how quickly they grow up thanks for linking to the BINKYLINKY

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    1. Thank you :) It really is, I hope it'll slow down a bit at some point x

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  5. Our twins are three and it seems like only yesterday that they were babies. I can't believe they start nursery in September. They really do grow up too fast. Thanks for linking up to the #BinkyLinky

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    1. I feel exactly the same way, I remember so vividly them first hours.. doesn't seem 4+ years! Hope the twins enjoy nursery! X

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