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I had a lovely time with Els last weekend. We had so much fun and although not everything was ideal, it was great. We made the best of our situation and I left feeling refreshed and ready for the week.
Coming back from there, I've found myself in a daydream. I keep thinking of other trips I want to take over the next few months. We're off on holiday come the beginning of August and I'm so excited to be able to say it's a holiday; we've not been on a proper one for a while. I'm looking forward to a proper break with my little ones and spending quality time together.


I've been a bit out of it this week, ending up bumbling through routine. Chris has been working a lot and has nicked the laptop (mine is completely rubbish), so I didn't get much blogging done. Feeling tired all the time and it feels like my brain is so active with so many thoughts and ideas. I'm wanting to make the most of this time before Freddie goes to school. This is the last term where we can pull him out of Nursery and I want make it worthwhile. I keep getting this thought that I'm 24 and Chris is 27 - we should be having so much fun! We spoke last night and both agreed that we've been so bogged down with everyday life that we've forgotten to enjoy ourselves as well - I hope this can change because our lives are so fragile. I don't want us to feel disconnected due to putting the washing up before having a little giggle over something.

It's so easy to get bored of life in the every day moments, but when you're young, you shouldn't ever feel like that. We need to make plans and pick ourselves up - maybe have a date! I don't know but my mind keeps drifting off. I feel I'm walking around in a daydream state.
The boys are what is keeping me grounded, to a point. They're both getting so big and only the other day I turned around to Chris and went 'since when did Noah start climbing everywhere and deciding he can let himself outside when he wants?' because it seems like everything has happened so fast and he's getting about more than ever. Time is going by so quick that I'm trying to figure out what we need to do first - it's like there's someone standing with a clock constantly winding the hours forward before you've barely brushed your hair. How is it, it only feels it's gone this quick since Noah? I never noticed the months whizzing past so much with Freddie. How is it I've only realised my own lifeline in the last year?
I'm finding it all a little bit scary to be completely honest. I'm finally understanding the sayings of 'take every second as it comes' 'enjoy the now' because it's all happening right now. I guess if you're having more better seconds than rubbish seconds you're doing it right? I think this is how I need to see the next few months - in the little seconds.

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  1. I definitely feel that my son's growing up way faster than my daughter did, as time just goes so quickly now. I do miss being able to take her away and out of nursery, too, now that she's in Reception at school, so do take advantage of that while you can. You are young, way younger than me, enjoy it! Thanks for sharing with #WotW again x

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    1. It's scary isn't it? I'm trying to figure out what we've been doing! Yeah I'm hoping we can make the most of the time we have left - September is going to be a shock to say the least! X

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    1. They really do don't they? It's a little sad! Yup, living in the moment! X

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